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I'm so happy for you! However, I also feel regretful.
Yaay! I heard great news. Well, I'm seveteen, as some of you who read this may or may not know. That goes for my closest friends! For the most part, they are all my age, or very close. I am the youngest... Anyway, that isn't the point.
I am going to be a God Mother!! ^^ Also a Maid of Honor. He he he. Don't get me wrong, I was utterly ecstatic to hear the news! I already had a feeling that this unexpected news would be about that, sadly. Sadly as in, I guessed it ahead of time. I feel I should have more respect for my friends than to randomly assume one is knocked up, you know? I mean, sure her habits aren't the best, but she tries the best she can in her own way. I wish I could help her out more, but I don't know how, you know?
I'm even happier that the father-to-be wants to stay around! I was slightly amused when she mentioned he feared she would take the baby and run. [The man fearing the ditching? So strange to me.] They even agreed to clean up! Which my friend assured me as soon as I mentioned they must stop their drugs and drinkin', at least during the pregnancy! No drinking or drugs! D< I was so thrilled they were going to stay clean, even after the kids [could be twins >_<]! Sure, a little drinking never hurts after, but with a kid they need to be safe about it now! Parties are great, but you know...they should be safe about it. She said she didn't even want to drink anymore at all! More power to her I suppose. =]
However, I do feel slightly guilty. This girl has been one of my best friends since like...fifth grade! When she moved here I talked to her and we hit it off like great friends. I've helped her through a lot, she assures me, and she is a relief to talk to. However, when she first started dating this troublesome father-to-be, things were not so grand. To be honest, I ******** hated him. =/ I didn't even want to bother giving him the time of day. A drop out? Who did drugs even? I don't think so. She was already heading in the wrong direction! Why date someone who would just continually push her in that horrible direction?! Well, to my despair, they dated. It got to the point where she wouldn't talk to any of us anymore.
I think the problem started before him, but he made it worse. When she started smoking pot things really shifted. [<--That was before him.] We rarely talked... It hurt a lot, you know? Loosing a friend to s**t like that. Then he came along and took all of her time! Bitches at school kept starting s**t with her, too! I was so pissed off! Then she dropped out. That ended it there. A fight followed. The Cold War of Cold Wars. We didn't speak. None of us spoke to her. The part that makes me feel guilty? We talked bad about her... So bad. Listing all of the negatives she did. Down talking her about all of her wrongs. Even as I did it I felt rather remorseful. Was it really her fault? I tried blaming her parents at first, even the kids pushing her around and threatening to kill or beat the hell out of her at school. [It was pretty much every girl in school. In short, they all thought she was trying to sleep with their boyfriends, but that was hardly the case. Their boyfriends were trying to sleep with her. -__-] In the end, I gave up and did blame her. Who couldn't have the will power to stand up for him/herself and do something about it?! It blew my mind she could be so spineless! Even now I am badmouthing, aren't I? Not my point. I see, now, that she isn't so weak as I had thought. What kind of seventeen-year-old could be so ecstatic to have a child with her boyfriend AND tell her parents before even the whole month is up? I am truly happy for her.
Still, the things I said... I wish I could take them back. She wants so bad for me to be in her life more. I gladly will! As long as no drugs come near me! I hate that s**t. >_< Alcohol, sure, but nuh uh to the drugs. I sure as hell won't be smokin' any pot.
Anyway. I had to get that off my chest. =P I wish her the best and I hope I can help. I can't wait 'till the kid is/are born! I wanna go baby clothes shoppin... He he he. whee
She only took a box pregnancy test. She has yet to go to the doctor. Still, she is pretty sure she is pregnant. I kinda hope so. If that's what it takes to make them clean up. ^^ Plus, they will be able to take care of the kid when he gets his new job. And she is getting her GED.
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