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Run Away: Day 2
It’s about five in the morning. I couldn’t really sleep last night. To worried I would be caught to sleep I guess. Anyways, I don’t think I’m going to school anymore, that’s where they’d look for me. Don’t know where I’m going to stay with, or maybe I could go on a rode trip…One thing I need to do is get a job. I’m not low on money yet, but I’m going to need to buy some more food soon, maybe some new clothes too. I didn’t really think this through since I thought I’d get caught, but this actually might be fun. At least I brought my journal so I wouldn’t go completely insane.
I’m trying to decide if I should tell you about my school life or my romantic life…school life first, seems more…suitable in my opinion. Hmmm…where to start. Got it! I’ll tell you how my school life got screwed just like my home life. Fun isn’t it? Having a screwed terrible life all the way around, but trust me you get used to it after awhile. You just learn to cope with it I guess. Though I wish Jamee didn’t have to go through all of this. He’s probably the only thing I care about in this life.
School was fine for me until my mother passed away, basically when I was eleven or in the fifth grade. Even by then I didn’t have any friends. I didn’t really talk to people and I hated when the teacher called on me to go up to the board and solve the problem. People and my parents thought I was just painfully shy, but Jamee knew I just didn’t like people. Anyways, I’ll talk about Jamee’s and my relationship later. I got teased at school a lot and sometimes it was too much to take. I would go home and take out a knife. I think you all know the rest of the story, but don’t worry I got out of that habit and started writing instead of cutting.
By the sixth grade I made one friend, one that I still have today. His name is Rye and whether he knows it or not he’s my world. I couldn’t survive without him now that I’ve gotten used to him being in my life. He helped me to stand up for myself and when I couldn’t he did for me. Once he became my friend all the teasing and the bullying stopped. He was kinda an outcast to. What the hell, we were both outcasts! Maybe that’s why we got along so well. People feared him just because the boy only had black clothes and didn’t seem nice. But if they had gotten to know him he’s a really loveable guy. Maybe that’s why I fell in love with him. More on that story later!
Now in the eighth grade Rye and I met Meg. Now Rye, Megs, and I make up our whole group that stayed together anyways. We did meet other people, but they came and left the group. Meg…is unique. In a way she’s like me, and we act a lot alike, but sometime she’s my complete opposite, and trust me if anyone noticed it the fastest it would be Rye. Rye has a good eye for spotting things like that; don’t know why he just is. It’s his talent; he can see what almost anyone’s feeling or thinking, or how people are alike and un-alike by just looking at them. Meg’s talent is drawing and mine is writing. Someday Meg and I are going to make a comic book; with Ryes help of course!
The teachers hated us in middle school and you know what? We hated those bitches too! Too much work and talking as Megs and I put it. Rye got in trouble a lot and he had his own seat in the principles office. The teachers pulled him out in the hallway a lot to talk to him about respect and that s**t but he would just laugh at them and tell them they couldn’t control him. He got suspended all the time and a few times he even got expelled. Now when ever he was out of school for one reason or another the days went by rather slowly. When I told Meg about it, she told me I was just used to having him around, but over time she noticed that it was something different and when she first told me I didn’t want to believe it. I had and still have feelings for Rye.
Back to school; Meg and I aren’t that great of students either. We don’t get in trouble as much as Rye, but we’re not perfect angels either. The worst thing Meg’s ever done was cussing out a teacher. Not so bad right? WRONG! She made the teacher curl up in a ball on the floor and cry. Meg’s words can hurt a lot and that just proves it. She was suspended for about two weeks I think. Now the worse thing I did was terrible and I wish I hadn’t done it, but what’s done is done. Meg, Rye and I got into a fight. I started the whole thing, but I’m not going into details. I might tell you later though. Hurtful words were yelled and punches, slaps and kicks were thrown. I got suspended for one week and so did Meg and Rye. Things were always a little different after that.
Right now I’m about to go into high school, same with Meg and Rye. We all get decent grades A’s and B’s mostly C’s here and there. None of have the slightest clue of what we’re going to do when we get into high school. We're thinking about collage but not to seriously. My parents are probably going to make me go to collage, same with Meg’s. Rye’s parents aren’t around much and they really don’t care about Rye, he never told me the whole story but if he doesn’t want to go to collage he’s not going to. Though I hope we can all go to collage together, I know that probably won’t happen. I’m gonna make them write me though, cause I’m not letting them out of my life. They both mean too much to me. I don’t know what I’d do If I lost them.
Well I’m gonna go eat, if I can find some food that is. Might try to find a job too, but that’s only if I have to. I did kinda get off topic, but oh well more details for you I guess, so be happy! I’m going to have to stop by Megs and Ryes house to tell them what’s happening so they don’t get freaked out. They probably already know I ran away cause my parents probably already called to see if I was there, but knowing Meg and Rye they can go nuts worrying about me. Don’t want them to worry their little pretty faces off, especially Rye. I hate it when he worries. Don’t like it when Meg gets worried either, trust me it isn’t a pretty sight. Anyways I really need to eat, my stomach’s gurgling. The entry’s kinda short but oh well. Amber’s out!
"Good-bye"
I wish this pain was gone
I wish I could say bye at down
I wish this would end
I wish we were still friends
The pain is done
The words were spoken at dawn
This thing has come to an end
Though we still aren't friends
Good-bye my love
You're still my dove
((just a random poem.i kinda got my ideas from the song Different Then You by the exies))
"Puppet"
The strings are in place
A smile comes across your face
What are you doing to me?
Once again I must pay the fee
The room is pitch black
Then the light floods the floor and the darkness I want back
I look all around
I can see but I can't hear or make a sound
A tug here and there
It's enough for them to stare
I cannot choose when I move or what I do
You make me move in ways so new
You look at me on more time
The slowly you cut the line
You throw me in the pile with the rest
I'm no longer the best
I lay there, but can't move
There's nothing left to prove
This day would come, that I knew
I no longer see applause only boo's
Even though you abandoned me for a muppet
I will always be your puppet
((Just experamenting with writing from a different point of veiw. it's a puppet's if you hadn't already guess from the title and everything.
anyways, hope you people like it ))
"Sand"
When will they see?
We were made to be
Can I be me?
You have the key
Will you wrap me in your arms?
You always had your special charm
Will your lips touch mine?
Some thing stay separate while other combine
When can I show them our love?
Let's wake them up with a shove
When will be together in this land?
Times running out like sand
My heart is gone
You took it as you left at dawn
One day we'll met in the sand
But that will be in another world; another land
((not really sure were this came from...just an idea that was running through my head a lot, so i thought i'd write about it. helped me think somewhat clearer so i hope you like it^^ ))
"Around"
I can see the guilt on your face
I know we lost pace
I need to find a new place
I will not be your doll in a case
You say it's all my doing
You know what I knew
YOu need to shew
YOu see them, but cant hear them boo
We are gone
We left each other at dawn
We walked away from that lawn
We didn't want to leave you Shawn
We watch you in that town
We know what far you are bound
We are going to come around
Just wait on that mound
((This is a very personal poem to me.
The first stanza is about someone in my life that lied to me and used me, but felt sorry afterwards. i forgave them but nothing was the same after that
The second stanza is about how everything gets blamed on me and never anyone else in my house.
The third stanza is about how me and my friend seperated but we didn't want to leave shawn behind(long story)
And finally the fourth stanza is about how they're watching over me. ))
"Die"
The black beast is in your life
You just sit there
I want to kill him with a knife
But I know that pain you can no longer bare
I'm fighting for you
This all along you have known
I'll do everything I can do
Cause you're crawling in my bones
I've been fighting this battle for only a week
Yet I have already lost
But you I still seek
The black beast took you away; you paid the cost
I sit here in my defeat
I was wrong
I feel so beat
You knew all along
The last thing I saw on your face was a smile
Though I dont know why
If I could I'd tade places with you, if only awhile
But maybe you wanted to die
((This is my feelings about my friend that died last weekend.))
 miroku fan 101 · Tue Jun 03, 2008 @ 03:40pm · 2 Comments |
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