I don't know who in their right mind would want to read this crap, but you can if you're that bored I guess.
I got the urge again, today. The urge to Drop. The urge to Drop, elongate and RUN. I wish I understood it. I've never even told Shane about it. It's so hard to talk about. I guess that's why I'm writing it here. I can put it down and probably nobody will read it. Maybe I'm hoping some random stranger will get it and tell me what the hell is going on with me. idk. Maybe there is someone out there that can understand the RUNNING. Probably not. All I know is the urge shakes me to the core. I'm nearly in tears writing this. I've never really admitted the urge before, even to myself. Not like this. It's always so sudden. I'll just be going about my normal day, coming out of a store, or riding in the car, and all of a sudden, it's THERE. The Urge. Telling me I can. Filling my mind, filling my flesh, stopping my heart and breath, filling my mouth with it's taste. Telling me to just Drop. To RUN. What terrifies me most is to try it. It would be scary to learn that it's real, but much scarier to learn that it's NOT. Then it's just all in my head, and I'm crazy. Which I'm pretty sure is the case.
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