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just got home from babysitting, haven't slept enough in weeks, and this brings me to the question of, why the heck am i still awake?!?!
You know when scenes keep playing over and over in your head til it feels like you're watching an endless movie? it's great and then you realize how fantasy they were. the chances of them happening in a perfect world are through the roof and then you're reminded you are here, not the perfect world. But though this isn't a perfect world it is pretty damn great. it would however be significantly more fun with you here. You're already here I know but i want you here heart THe mind is a beautiful place, anything can happen there. but you aren't in my mind. so this leads me to ask, will i ever be in a beautiful place with you? One question could bring us there or throw us spitefully into a thundering storm. The answer may be worth it, but is the risk to much to take. It could change everything, tear others than ourselves apart if the answer is no, perhaps even if the answer is yes. stepping off the ledge not knowing how far the fall is. teetering on the edge is me tonight. as i have been for many weeks. maybe you'll read this. and when the day comes were i jump heartfelt into the unknown. you'll know where i stand. Cause the day is coming when i can wait no longer, when i get tired of being pulled in all direction. how easy would it be to end the endless torent of questions with one simple one. ironic isn't it?
hmm wonder if anyone will read this, ever. stare
sweatdrop that was maybe for than i intended, more than i cared to share, but i want to wear my heart on my sleeve, cause though it may get soiled, i want the world to see.