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Do you ever feel like you are splitting in half? Emotionally, i mean. Sometimes i want to be so good, to be an angel and love everyone. Then I want to be evil and hurt someone. Like i want to rip something to pieces and just yell and cry about it. I dont know why i feel this way. I dont want to hurt the ones i care about but i seem to do just that. I dont understand things but i do understand them. I am so contradictory to myself and i just dont know what to do. My only outlet is in writing. So i write poems, songs, and stories. I also keep a diary because i just cant seem to tell people what is really going on inside me. Maybe you think that i am just a silly little girl. And maybe i am. But i dont seem to be able to change.