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So... that's it. I'm done...

My car payment came out today and It put me in negative numbers for my bank account. I have nearly no gas in my car, maybe enough for one or two more days of travel... I have no more money... and I still have no job. I was counting on my income tax coming in by now, but it's still being processed even though mom and dad both got theirs, and we sent them all at the same time....

I had to ask my father for money for my account so I wouldn't owe... I feel about three inches tall and he's pissed off because of it, which is obvious. Trust me I didn't want to ask him for anything. I hate my father. I hate who he is.

He gave me everything when I was growing up but I don't want anything from him now, and I hated that I had to ask for it. I know he only wants the best for me and knows I'm capable of more than what I'm doing now... But he's such a frustrating man that I just can't stand him.

I'm ready to scream. I don't know what else I can do... I'm ready to give up, and I have no one to lean on or help me. And I've never been one to stand alone and do things for himself...

But I can't give up... I have bills, I have responsibilities... I'm an adult now. And I'm in the worst situation of my life. And I'm alone.

I've been relying on people for my entire life. In some instances it's not such a bad thing... But I'm nearly 23 years old, I'm still living with my parents... Relying on them for food and shelter when I should be out on my own by now.

I don't know what to do now....

I can't wait anymore and I have no phonecalls from anyone for a job. I'm lost...

I need help... and I don't know who to ask it of...because everyone just bats me aside...

I have less than a month. If my income tax doesn't come in in the next week or two.... I've failed...

Oblivion....