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That's it...I'm just so friggen sick of my family I can't stand it anymore. Specifically my dad. He yells at me, hits me, and all around treats me like s**t. I'm SICK OF IT! I have always worked my hardest at everything, and usually when he ask for something I do it! It has gotten so bad now then when he is pissed I get depressed and it effects me mentally, physically, and emotionally so much that now all the pain I had going on has doubled! Example: He says I spend way too much time on the computer, so I signed up for a few things and now he complains about haveing to drive me there EVEN THOUGH HE HAS TO GO THERE ANYWAYS! And today he ******** blew up at me, and just cause I didn't wanna ******** go with him to the ******** university. IF HE HAD TOLD ME YESTERDAY I WOULDN'T HAVE BEEN SO PISSED! You don't tell someone that they are leaving 5 Minutes before you go! THAT'S NOT RIGHT! Because of him right now I have the worst headache of my life, my coughing got worse, the musle I pulled was ALMOST better and now I PULLED IT AGAIN CAUSE OF HIM! Now I know the reason I'm always upset with myself and saying I'm stupid and a fool and the reason I'm always saying that I suck, it's HIM! IT'S HIS ******** FAULT! I DO EVERYTHING I CAN AND IT IS NEVER ENOUGH! He treats me like s**t! No matter WHAT IT IS I CAN ALWAYS COUNT ON HIM TO TELL ME IT'S STUPID! Everything I have ever been interested in is STUPID TO HIM! Just cause I like anime, I'M STUPID! Just cause I like acting, I'M STUPID! Just cause I like fiction books, and video games, and all that other stuff I like, IT'S STUPID TO HIM SO I'M ******** STUPID!
And that's just dad...my Great Aunt is a ******** racist b***h and I can't stand it! SHE DOESN'T KNOW s**t ABOUT ANYTHING! SHE SHOULD NOT BE ALLOWED TO TALK ABOUT PEOPLE LIKE THAT! >< THESE ARE NICE ******** PEOPLE! Here is a prime example: This morning we were leaving and she saw the rocks out of place and the little kid next doors toy in the rocks, so she says "Stupid little black kid messing up the rocks, his mother should clean that up, but I guess this is what you can expect from a ******." WHAT THE ********!? WHAT IS WRONG WITH HER?! HOW WOULD SHE LIKE IT IF SOMEONE SAID SOMETHING LIKE THAT TO HER HUH?! SHE WOULD b***h ABOUT IT FOREVER I KNOW THAT MUCH!
And all through this when ever my dad and I fight my grandma sides with my dad, EVEN THOUGH I AM RIGHT! I DON'T FIGHT FOR SOMETHING UNLESS I KNOW I AM RIGHT WITHOUT A DOUBT! And whenever my Great Aunt steps outta line and I try and say something I get "KDIN DON'T SAY THAT TO HER IT'S DISRESPECTFUL!" DISRESPECTFUL!? DISRESPECTFUL!? WHAT THE ********!? SHE IS THE b***h WHO NAGS ABOUT THINGS SHE DOESN'T EVEN KNOW ABOUT!
I'm sick...tired...and I'm in pain...I want to leave...I am so close to just selling all my s**t and moving up to Newfoundland right now...I miss Nikita...
P.S.S: To everyone reading this I'm really sorry about all the swearing and stuff, just...so...ARGH!
P.S.S.: My dad got so pissed today that now I am not allowed to say anything when he is near me or allowed to talk to me...and by the way...he didn't order the costume he lied.
Ja Ne.
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