I DID!
So now, though am very late, I will go ahead and take the time to write out the latest of news from when it happened to where I am and what is going now up to this day. As I have a lot so for those who really hate to read a lot, then this entry isn't for you but some lurking friends like to know thus this is for your guys. (I personally hate typing it over and over too)
May the 11th, a Friday is when dad and I finally left the grandparent’s place and moved to another temporary place. Regardless of what you think or feel, I’ll share because I can care less what ya think as I do what I have to do to take care of my family and all in all my dad is my only family, who comes first and foremost, even over myself. Anyways, enough biting heads off, I’m staying in a weekly rated hotel where it is like a mini-apartment only it is all one room. No walls to split things up except for the bathroom. There is two beds mind you, I’m not sick like that with the incest bullshit. That is just gross. >.< Dad and I are close but NOT like that so don’t even try to go there. >={ It isn’t the ultimate place to be I know but there are reason why I can’t just get an actual apartment and the MAIN reason would be that I can NOT AFFORD it. Dx My income is WAYYY to little to afford a place on my own and though my dad is here he is not working so I pay the rent for the whole month, PLUS my car insurance, gas and food etc etc. This is a key reason why I work so many hours, just to have a little bit of extra spending cash for myself when friends invite me out. (I get invited a lot, but rarely actually accept to go)
Thus now were are here. The main reasons for wanting to leave the grandparents place is simple but I guess let me draw it out for you to fully understand for those who aren't aware of what bugged me so much there.
I was UN-ABLE (aka not allowed) to do the following ::
- Take a shower everyday
Watch TV whenever I wanted.
Watch TV as long as I wanted.
Be up late with lights on.
Go out and not come home without calling in to tell first. EVEN if it means waking them.
Have to explain EVERY LITTLE Thing I do, such as why I'd swap my off days.
So on and so forth but I won't go into the little details those listed are just the big ones that bugged my dad and I the most. In short it was like living in a cage, so many rules, no freedom and sure as hell not able to be comfortable.
Well now being where I am, though the space is limited I'm at least ABLE to do much more. I can LIVE comfortable and how -I- want to live, well with all things considered how I want anyways. *rofl* I'm able to shower whenever I please, as many times I want, watch tv as much as I want no matter the time and don't have to report when I come and go. Where I go nor anything of the sort. My dad isn't all up in my space like that, thank gawd. True I have little to no money because of being here and paying everything but in the end to live comfortable just to be happy (to some degree) it is worth it. *.* Trust me. You'd feel the same too if you knew just how much of a pain it was to be there. I know are family and trying to help but trying to help doesn't give 'em the right to TELL ME how I should or should not live or do things. I'm NOT their child. Hell even my OWN dad never pulled that s**t.
SOo all in all I'm doing better on the stress meter. It is much less. xD But still struggling on funds until my dad can start working to help out. Dx For now though, I don't let it get to me and do what I gotta do, hence why I've been working 6 days a week. Anyways, enough of that. Onto OTHER things.
As some have already heard, YES I do have a boyfriend. Been about 2 years if not more since I last had one, so it does feel a bit odd and strange to be honest. o_O I've dated a few times though while single, no doubt about that. Well the guy I am with, we dated for about a month and hung out often to talk and get to know each other and just all in all had fun but BEHAVING. *glare glare* But then we realized we was both happy and had no reason to date anyone else, thus he asked me to be his girl and made it official *swoons* And to be honest, I'm very happy it. IT is hard to explain but just something about him, the way he is, treats me, we always have fun together etc etc. Such feelings are new and kinda scareh but for him, I welcome with open arms. XD But still I'm careful too but not letting fear stop me to much, from letting him in, one step at a time on getting to know -me-. ^_^ His full name is Benjamin but as most they just call him Ben or his family refers to him as Benji and when I first heard that, I giggled. I thought it was just the CUTEST nickname I've ever heard so now I call him that too. <333 Among other pet-names, haha. But that of another story. xP
Now with my life up-dated for ya, I shall be done and move on to other things. If ya actually read it all - CONGRATS TO YA. Comment if ya like, but really aren't needed. Or rather let's just say, I don't expect any.
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