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"sigh" I never ment to hurt you I dont know why you blam me for everything I havent got a clue I Loved you and cared for you and tryed my best I got scared and wasent my best I fought with all and crumbled inside I tried going to you but you would always lock yourself inside I would try to go to you for you where the one that said you would always be there when needed I did'nt force you into anything im not that kind of man if you want to see it as a liveing hell then go on with your demands you told me to open up then when I tryed you left you broke me without a clue before you left you did you never seemed to care you lied to me and yourself and I still hurt from the pain you gave me only your worst you did'nt show kindness or Love when I needed you the most I was all alown because of something about me I canot control because of something about me you used to Love im sorry that I hurt you but you said yes did I ask for the pain you broght me no I asked for kindness and forgiveness for something I only had half a part in you blam me for everything wrong in your life yet dont see your part in it I never made you do anything and you still havent said your sorrys you said be a real man dont cry you said we could be friends witch was a lie you ignored me and left me alown to die and I picked myself up and came back again im myself again no thanks too you and have even more pain to go thro you said too open up too you that you would always be bye my side thro all no matter what forever and ever till the end of forever...well I guess forever isent as long as it seems because you left me alown when all I was asking for was a hug when you held out your hand for help and everyone ignored you I took it I helpet you out of your hell made you stronger and showed you Love then when it was my turn you turned and left leaveing me too deal with it alown again just like all the times before I couldent Love or trust a woman that would leave at first sight of the door I grew more distant more reserved more scared of loseing my only reserve my only light in this dark place of my own makeing of my own discrase and like all the other times you left me to die because of a mistake I will not deny but why was it I forgave all yours and you couldent forgive just one of mine? when I stayed up all thos sleepless nights makeing shure you where alright when I saved you from yourself and your self distructive self when I showed you light and hope Love and kindness you couldent forgive me for my one time of blindness I wasent the only one in volved for 50% wasent my fault but you will never see that im sorry for my part and you will never be sorry for the half you are a part you will never forgive and come back again for you just give in and change again...hows that for a poem I just cam up with it pored my heart out but will you care....no without a dout... crying crying crying