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This has been copied from another one of my online journals. I'm lazy.

The past week has been very scary. I went to the eye hospital on monday because my optition said I should go. I went, had some exams then waited for the main doctor to come see me. She said my eyes were fine, it was actually my brain that was the problem. At that point I thought it was ******** brain cancer or something. I felt my heart leap into my mouth and I felt like I was going to be sick. She told us to go to neurology to be seen by a specialist.

When we (my mum and I) got down there a doctor came and talked to me about the pains I was getting, how well I could see, where it hurt etc. then he took me to look at a letter chart. I couldn't read any of it. He told me I had Benign Intracranial Hypertension. Basically it's too much pressure in the brain. I had to have a CT scan so they could see if there was anything growing in my brain and after that I had to have a lumbar puncture. At that point I was really f*cking scared. He told me if the BIH got worse I could loose my sight forever. gonk

The CT scan wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I knew it doesn't touch you at all, but the noises are scary. The lumbar puncture was pure hell. I knew it would involved needles, but they said I wouldn't feel anything after the anesthetic. WRONG! I didn't feel it when the larger needles went in, but I felt it when they went into my spine. It f*cking hurts scream . It felt like my uscles were clenching together so naturally my reaction was to straighted my back to make it stop. However when I did this he had to put the needle in again. The had to use an x-ray because tehy couldn't find the space by touching my back. It took his 6 tries to find the right spot. SIX! Ask anyone who's has a lumbar puncture (spinal tap) what it's like. They'll tell you it's awefull (unless they were unconcious or drugged).

I had to have another CT scan wednesday afternoon. A nurse came in and said she had to put a needle in my hand because they were going to inject dye into me so they could see the veins. That was not fun. It was do painful. I sucked up the pain though and went down to x-ray. When I got in I got on the bed and waited for the dye. One of the nurses looked at eh needle and said "I'm going to have to put a different needle in because this one's too small." WTF woman!!! It was a HUGE needle that got shoved in my forearm which caused me to bleed a lot. Actually having the dye in me wasn't so bad. It was a strange sensation. It makes parts of your body feel really hot and tingly. I felt it in my mouth, neck, shoulders and somewhere else redface

After all that and the crappy hospital food I was allowed to go home yesterday afternoon. David called me everyday I was in the hospital to make sure I was alright. I'm glad he did because I didn't want him thinking I was ignoring him or something even worse had happened to me.

I found out today that I have to have another lumbar puncture on tuesday. As you can probably guess I'm not looking forward to it. I have to have it because they need to lower the pressure in my brain even more. When they did it the first time the pressure was 50. It's supposed to be between 15-20 so you know there was a big problem. It's now down to 30 so I still have a bit of trouble seeing and I get headaches, but they're not as bad and not as frequent. Thank the goddess for such wonderfull doctors and nurses who made everything go so quickly smile

Well I'm going to go to bed now. I have to get up at 8am to take my medication. It sucks but I don't want the pressure to build up again. Because of all this I can't fly anytime soon so it'll be a little while until I can be with David. I won't go until I'm 100% better anyway.