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Where to begin? Been a while since i wrote in this thing, probably for the best.. yeah. Anyways, this is gonna be a li journal, so yeah just dont read it if you dont wanna hear about drama, because drama follows me.

Right so my best friend (who doesnt do gaia, and if anyone that DOES get on gaia tells her about this, ill personally injure you, you know who you are) got married this past may. At 18. Everyone is still betting how long they last. Anyways, she is moving to alaska next year to leave me alone in texas with everyone else. Well lately i mean i knowi its selfish and all, but I feel like she only comes over to talk to my parents about her marriage, I mean she never talks to me unless she is venting about her husband, like i really care about what a jerk my ex is right? he's my ex for a reason. Anyways, i say i feel this way because anytime she calls she asks "Are mom and dad there?" before she even says anything else and if i say no then she just goes on with "oh well i guess ill call later. when will they be back?" and so on and so forth. Some best friend, right? but whatever. I'm only here to listen to her b***h about her life? That isn't what friends SINCE KINDERGARTEN are for, now that we are both in college. We lasted from 5 years old to almost 19 years old and this is how i get treated? But if i talk to her about it, she'll just blow it off as me being paranoid and jealous, and who knows, maybe i am, but damn. If you are gonna say we are friends the least you could do is, oh i dont know, spend some time with me and not call me pathetic and all that other stuff. So i spend my days off lounging in my pjs, ladeda. I freeze at work, i feel i deserve my comfy time... anyways, ok now that I'm DONE ranting about my "friend" now... well for now...

How in the world can people really call themselves your "friend" when they treat someone like that, or i dont know, worse? Cuz trust me I been there too. At least my "friend" that uses me for my parents talks s**t to my face. I've also had those wonderful people who supposedly care about you talk s**t behind my back, so whatever. I guess what I'm really getting at, is that I'm kinda sick of all the fakeness, and if thats what you want, dont even bother with me, cuz im sick of it. I aint a little doll that was meant to be played with by everyone, so unless you gonna actually stop all the bull, and not do it, dont bug me. K? Done with rant.

Oh yeah and i really dont care about the missing punctuation in this, or the misspeling, or even the fact that i rarely used capitalization. Suck it up. this is the interwebz people. I type better usually but im frankly to lazy for that.