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Hey Journal
Hows it going ? blaugh
I tried to hold it on and tried to forget but.... I couldn't only hold it for i guess a couple of day...
Yah you got it I've been crying again... I can't help it I guess
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I don't want my doctor to know I'm crying alot... she'll think i'm depressed and i would have to take anti-depressing pills
Well this time it's a good thing!!
I know my middle school years were pretty bad but ... I'll make that up! smile
When I was crying today it was different it was different i started the people that TRIED to help me... they all said one thing... SNAP OUT OF IT...
sweatdrop I'm sorry but I can't i've decided once the day I graduate will be the day I die If not
Thats when my life will go down hill and eventually i'll probably become a hobo and die on the street so no one would care blaugh
Well anyways I thought how my lifes been yah there been ALOT of bad time but there were sometime that made me so happy... and I thought "Damn... Those were good times" there past three years my grade have been slipping... Well I'ma change that..
So before I dead I'll be the best I can be (lol the army... or is it the navy?...Airforce?)
The best Big Brother
The best Child
The best student (or close)
The well... anything that i'm doing right now...
so that way when I die... Atleast my parents and brother will remember that there and big brother was a person to look up .... a good person... your asking why? Well Idon't wanna be taking pills for the rest of my life and the fact is.. growing up sounds boring... I know for a fact that most of us won't be famous because of whats happening know... The war... The uprise in Gas...Homes being lost... IT's a bad time... thats why .... right now all i do is try my best when i reach that high BANG... Bye Bye.. I guess you could it's "my dying will" ... someone to atleast remember me....as a person who tried who did something... who made something of himself before taking it all away... When I die There will be a note next to me stating that most kids are emotionally unstable and try to hide from there parents I'm going to try to find a way for kids of the future to be as successful as they can be so that when they die... it wouldn't be just one person that remembered him/her
it would be a lot ... seriously come on if you had a kid wouldn't you want to protect him/her?(if you don't your a cruel sick b****)
What I'm trying to get across is that kids die because of stupid mistake they did or someone else did and something about this needs to be done (Note: if the children are our future then why aren't helping them to become the best they can be?)(i chose size 18 for a reason... It's the age I will die no doubt about it and when it comes I'll be ready I know i'll be ready because well mostly who we are now will be us in the future... If i change now there could be a SLIGHT chance that m future will change.... but I doubt it.. I may act like I'm not determined, I may act like I'm still a little kid, well you know what? Your totally wrong)
I've seen so many people that are.. emo a lot of people don't anything about it
they just make fun of them..... annoy them... and at some point they can't take it anymore...Bam someones dead....
SignedRommel
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