At first, I never dreamed to have a bf like him which is also a very far relationship. I'm like O_O cuz he told me that he's serious to me and whooo!!! I never see myself loving a guy who's a total foreigner. Yeah, before I got 2 bf who have foreign blood but not fully. We never lose a day not to get online and say Hi or do some chats with each other's family. I also never realized that I will tell my whole life to him in bold which he did the first thing. And I think that's the reason why our relationship is still on track and going stronger. At the moment, we're 7months and 19 days in relationship. But we're also a normal bf/gf that some other partners usually do. Yeah, we fight, giggle, doing crazy antics, and a lot more.. well don't ask more.. haha xp
Anybody got problems, but I think my hubby/Bf was the toughest among all. How could a boy give all out to his family? Well yeah, I can consider my own father and my own mother. But still, his mom is being an evil to his sons. Uhm, is that the way to discipline his own child? How could it be? Not to mention all of them, but I wanna love my bf more and more until we have finally succeed ourselves in front of God and make a normal family, a simple life which is very faithful to each other. I am afraid though of Divorce, I never planned to do it and I won't ever do it once i am committed in the eyes of God.
Until one day, July 15, 2008 11:23:14 AM: I asked my hubby on gaia/ BF in real for break up because of some stupid reasons. At MSN, he did a video call saying that he wanted to see me and all. I'm very cranky cuz i even declined it. I'm very serious of it because I really wanted to do break up. I'm with my feet on the ground and in my head thinking that I did a bad influence and have been a bad gf for her that having him pressured to meet me in real. I really decided it over many and thousand times. Oh, I can't handle and stand the way of his face looks like. It was red, frowned, too bold for sadness, begging, feeling so killed and you know by whom? Well, by me!!! Oh my God, I have caused him to cry, and yeah... I am crying too. Letting go your loved ones? Who love those kind of feeling? I really feel sorry for saying it and I do have regrets that I did it.
So guys? Do u really think Online relationship is a waste of time? For me it's not though I do have plenty of friends in real. I am not bragging it but I know I do have it. For me, my Bunchy Jeize or Jason, was the first person that made me cry in front of a boy. To me, I do have firm decisions, but I cannot hold it back if it with regards of my loved ones.
Babydams, I love you so much. In time, I know we'll make it. And thank you for having a stronger faith than me. I am proud that your my bf and I have chosen you among all. I am looking forward for our 8th monthsarry. Ttyl when u wake up *hugs and kisses u* wink whee heart
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