Thursday July 17, 2008 Mood: depress crying
Lately, I have been feeling depress and I don't know why but I just start to cry. Some of my friends have been worrying about me. Everyone says you have to have a reason when you cry but for me, I just cry for no reason...or maybe I just don't know. I feel like my heart just doesn't know anymore....I feel lonely at times because my friends get to see each other but for me...I only have been out once with one of my friends ever since summer started. For everyone, I haven't seen them...even my own boyfriend. I just talk to them on the phone, though at times, they are out having fun with everyone else while I'm at home just watching my little brother and doing chores and cry in my room. I know I sound like a whining emo but for me, I feel left out...I feel like an outcast out of society...Everytime I hear my boyfriend say that a friend is coming over or he's going to play with his friends across the street...I feel.....feel jealous that he gets to be with friends and me, I home babysitting as always, locking myself in my room.....But hopefully I get to go out to see them...eventually.....
CoCa-CoLAxxSniFFeR · Fri Jul 18, 2008 @ 01:22am · 0 Comments |