Understanding myself is harder than one would think , even I have trouble at that.
At times I just can't seem to understand myself , I want to listen to sertain music , look at sertain serie's , looking at cards I got or even playing sertain games. That can only be a nostalic mood I have. Why I want to listen or play older games/music I don't know , but I just like the way they look/like the sound. I guesse it's because of little "trips through memory lane" They can be so calming and joyfull. Same goos for a niced evening walk with nice temprature. Off course when I walk outside I got the habit of looking at places I spend time before my movement. Remebering my childhood. *sigh* that can be so calming.
As for RL , I can be caring for people around me , but sometimes I can't help at all. And that makes me feel so helpless. If only I could help against the pain. My dad has his fair share of troubles with his heart , and given more recent events ( july 21 entry ) I tend to be more caring when my dad is in pain again. Although we can't do much all I can do is better than standing helpless waching him criple in pain. Thank goodness for his medication. Maby we should make a little box for when such a thing happens again. All we need in 1 box , placed in view. That's food for thought.
Being somewhat of a worrywat. Till the next time.
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