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Lately, I've been having dreams.

...Well, obviously.

Most of the time, I forget my dream after I wake up.

But, not lately. I've been remembering my dreams every night now for the past... two weeks? Between one and two weeks.

That's not what's been freaking me out, though. All of my dreams have been revolving around two people.

Two boys. Two close friends. Two crushes.

One crush was named Trenton. He had the reddest hair and the most florescent blue eyes. He was artistic, funny, and smart. The three perfect qualities that I would wish for in a guy.

He was my 6th grade crush, and we hung out a lot. He called us as best friends, but he didn't know I had a crush on him.

When I moved that summer, he was one of the guys I deeply regretted not saying good bye to. I never had the chance after that school year ended. It was an unexpected move.

The other crush, however, was someone I had known for a longer time.

His name's Chris. He is still my best friend today. I'm not sure about my current feelings for him. I, positively, had a crush on him from 3rd grade to 5th or 6th grade. He wasn't artistic, but he was, and still is, the sweetest guy I ever met. He is also funny and extremely smart.

He was the last guy I saw before I moved. He gave me a blueberry pie for a "good-bye" present and a hug. I enjoyed the hug way more than the pie, even if it was the best pie in the history of pie.

But, back to the dream thing.

Like I said, both guys have been included in my dreams.

Trenton has been in dreams involving a lot about us just going around in different places. Exploring different places. The first one was about us on the last day of 6th grade, hanging out in the snow. (I don't know why there was snow in June.)

Important Quote:

Me: "Trenton!"
Him: "Hm?"
Me: "Don't forget me, okay?"
Him: *smiles* "Yea."

And the one I had last night was about us walking around my old school, trying to find our French class.

I can't really remember anything extremely important about that dream.

Chris was in a dream about him being captured... by elves... But, before that, he had a sad expression when I told him I was "together" with someone else.

Important Thing:

When I was with the guy who I was "together" with (he forced me to get together with him), there was a heart meter thing that popped up. There were 15 hearts in all in the meter. No hearts were filled.

However, when I walked up to Chris in the school hallway and hugged him, 14 out of 15 hearts were filled on the meter.

...

The thing that really bothers me about these dreams, however, is why they're there.

Why am I having them? Are you trying to tell me something, God? What is it?

These dreams haven't brought me any real answers... They've made me a little sad, since it's reminding me about how wonderful those two crushes were. But, they're in Virginia. I'm in Massachusetts.

There's no way anything else could happen between both of them.

Maybe one, since we still stay in contact, but definately not the other.

And that one that I'm in contact with... I'm not sure what my feelings are for him. I know, I'M SURE, he's my best friend in the whole wide world. But, I'm not sure if I think of him more than just a friend.

Either way, I just want to know...

What are you trying to tell me, God?