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Anything that could have possibly went WRONG today, did.
Reason?
******** people around me. Work, home, EVERYWHERE. I go to my stupid minimum wage job, for a meager paycheck, that can help get my stupid a** into a college. But people at work make it ******** hell. And they don't even realize what they're ******** doing to me.
I've been working there for 3 MONTHS. No, that isn't long, I know. But in those ******** three months, i've made probably 3 friends. 2 are managers, and the other is a 25 year old pot head. Don't get me wrong. I've tried countless times to fit in/make friends. I'm not picky when it comes to friends. I just want to be the good guy. But what? Some smooth talkin' idiot started work the other day, and EFFORTLESSLY made friends with everyone, but me. And he ******** knows it. He just thinks i'm some stupid emo kid. ******** him, and his silly stereotyping ways. Asswipe.
Another thing. My ******** dad. My family has fallen apart MANY ******** times due to this man's incapacity to ******** THINK CLEARLY. He thinks he can run the family, morph us into whatever the ******** he wants. I've told him countless ******** times i'm NOT joining the GODDAMN MILITARY. That's not even the ******** point. You just can't talk to the man without feeling uneasy. I swear to God he has more mood swings than a pregnant woman. My mom ******** CRIED HER DAMN EYES OUT IN FRONT OF HIM, and all he does is ******** shrug. Did he try to comfort her? Hold her? ******** no. He's an a**, and I have no ******** idea what got my Mom to marry this ********.
But it all comes down to one ******** idiot, that I wish would just ******** die.
Me.
I have no idea why people call me a "quiet/shy kid". ******** that s**t. I'm not shy. If i'm not talking, it's because I DON'T HAVE ANYTHING TO SAY. But when I do make friends, I'm a happy camper. I'll crack jokes, and be friendly. That's all I want to be. Everybody's friend. And I'm a ******** idiot for thinking that's even possible in this ******** city.
I've tried COUNTLESS times to form a GODDAMN band. That's been my dream practically since birth. To be the guitarist in a band. Living the life.
But it's not going to happen. It doesn't seem anyone feels the same way about it that I do. So ******** that. When it comes down to it, I'm a ******** terrible guitarist. i've always wanted to be a musician, but ******** that s**t. Why in the world would I play music for people I ******** hate? Most people in this ******** state are ******** rednecks.
I just can't wait to book my a** out of this backwater town. ******** it.
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I doubt any person would read all this s**t. I don't blame them. But if you post a ******** comment with nothing but 100% bullshit on it, I'm not even going to read it.
Please excuse my excessive foul language.