I sit by the door and Alex is in the row next to me but to seats up.
And Rachel sits on the other side of the room.
And today Alex walked over to the other side of the to go hang out with Rachel.
But they looked so happy together.
They were face to face laughing and having fun the whole class period. Suddenly my felings changed.
I pictured Alex at a wedding and he was the groom,
and I pictured Rachel walking down the isle. In the prettiest dress I have ever seen.
They were so happy together. I was sitting in one of the seats ready to cry but then happy for Alex at the same time.
Rachel had the biggest smile on her face and she was laughing. Alex had that look on his face that said
"how did I get so lucky"
it was so weird.
Then I came back to reality when my watch started beeping like crazy.
Then the lunch bell rang.
I realized I had tears running down my face I quickly wiped them away as FAST as I could.
I think Alex deserves someone other than me. Any guy deserves someone other than me.
What would any guy want with Borin Ole Me anyway's. I should just have no friends, live alone when I grow up. Not get married, but get my drem job as a writer like Ive always wanted.
I'll always still love Alex but
I'm not suppose to have friends or be with a guy FOREVER.
Its where I belong.
