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Into the Mind of KiKi!
Learn about ME and my WILD LIFE! Comment if you want
LIFE?!?!?!?!
What do you consider your life? And how it turned out? We never know what each day will bring us, besides a new set of challenges and obsticles. We can plan and think we know what we want but it never turns out to be what we wanted. However, in the end it turns out to be the best thing that coiuld ever happen. No one's life is perfect, they may act like, but you never know what happens behind closed doors.

I had everything planned and I had (still do) dreams of college, however, I met a guy that turned my life upside down. But it turned tou to be a bad idea to be with him. But he never would let me leave him and no matter waht i tried he was always there when we broke up. It was an abusive relationship. I went into debt to support him and his drinking and drug problem. But from that horrible relationship I have grown up and I have a wonderfull beautiful daughter.

I have been in and out of bad relationships since I was 16. No one really knows are understands every thing I have been through. They think that
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"oh yea I know how you feel."


But they never do. Its Ironic they say they understand and will be there for me but when i talk about it when I need to let it out, all i hear is
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"blah blah blah."


Cuz they have no clue what it is like to have an addiction, or be in abbusive relationships. I have gone through alot more then i have told any one cuz i can't trust them not to use it against me.

I am a single parent. My friends have no clue how hard it is to do it alone. Yea one parent is there you know constantly, but there is the emotional support and the help when you need to scream and get away. They have someone they can go to at night and let off their chest the events of the day. And there are things a mother cant do for a daughter. No one understands you need two parents. A mom for the love and comfort. A dad for the strength and toughness.

If and whenmy friends read this they still will not understand. but i dont care i am here on my own to feet after having a gun pointed at me, being held at gun point, and having been beaten and raped repeatedly.

I have been through the worst and I see the light at the end of the tunel. Soon my life with be stable again. I will have a job to support my famliy and have the people that I love surround me. My family is the most important people in my life. Friends they come and go. Boyfriends they come and go. A family is there for you no matter what they forgive you and they are yours no matter how much you think they screwed up or they think you screwed up. In the end thats all you will have. So even if you think they was wrong and you was right still say
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"I am SORRY!!!!!"


Life is a never ending treat never forget the ones who love you.


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  • User Comments: [1]
    Wesley Morph
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    Sat Aug 23, 2008 @ 12:33am


    I will be the first to admit that I couldn't begin to understand the hell you've been though nor can I say I comprehend the daily stress of raising a child by yourself. I can say that I love you prolly more then you'll know. You deserve to be happy and I hope you find happiness for yourself and your daughter. Just know I'm always here for you no matter what and I won't ever judge.


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