me and Lance have spent so much time this summer...
And weve, laughed and joked around and we text each other all the time... and stuff...
and one day i was walking out in the rain, and he doesnt live to far from where i live now, and i was walking past his house...
and i noticed that he was there, cause i could see him from one of the windows in his house...
And i texted him... and i said, Hey Lance!!! I'm walking past your house... come outside by yOuR back yard and wave to me...
And he did... And we had the conversation of a life time...
And a few days after that... I kind of fell in love with him...
And on one friday, the friday before school started...
I was at the park by the neighbor hood i live in... And no one was really there but me... And i texted Lance and said...
Hey Lance you wanna hang out with me at the park??
And he said sure one sec...
and before i knew it, i saw him on his bike rideing twards me...
And At one of the tables Lance put his bike by it... And sat down next to me on the end of the Table... And i sat kind of in the middle...
And we talked, and had so much fun... And we stayed there for a few hours...
But then he had to go, and so did i...
And i always love to go for long walks... But when ever i look at that table where we sat and talked...
I cant help but think about how amazing that day was...
and how i wished that day hadn't ended...
And that night when i got home from the park, sneaking out too see him
i finally had enough streangth to tell him that i was in love with him...
And he told me that he loved me back...
And it was soo awesome... But this is where i mess up everything again
i dont know wat i did wrong...
i dont know if i pushed it to far or wat... But one day...
he just... stopped...
He stopped texting me alot...
he stoped, riding past my house on his bike...
he stoped saying that he loved me so much...
i swear i did something wrong... but i dont know what...
today on the bus this morning, was the first time we actually got close to holding hands...
I always sit next to him on the bus...
But we kind of have to kind of keep our love a secret cause if certaint people because if they found out it would ruin everything...
but anyway, on the bus, my hand touched his...
and i wanted to hold his hand...
but i was scared to do so... And no one would notice cause our hands were below the seat, kind of of the seat a little bit...
and my pinky touched his, but i quickly moved it back,
cause i was so scared to do something wrong
and screw it all up like i did with alex...
but then his pinky wraped around mine...
and it stayed that way the rest of the bus ride on the way too school...
and i thought too myself...
mabie i wasnt ruining anything after all...
And the rest of the day i literally could not stop thinking about it...
And i couldnt wait to sit with him after school on the bus ride home...
and mabie hold hands all the way... instead of just holding pinkys...
but it didnt end up that way...
he told me,when we got on the bus that, he wanted to sit alone...
so he could think about some things...
But i said ok, and i was totally fine with it...
but after the bus ride home today...
he texted me, and said... "Im sorry im breaking up"
i dont know if he meant the phone, or if he really meant breaking up...
But ever since, i think he meant "break up"
and i dont know wat to do... im so confused, and alone...
If anybody reading this knows wat to do then, coment on my profile...
help me through this...
cause all i need right now, is someone to talk too sad cry
