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Lately, as in the past few months, I've been thinking to myself about a good few things. Things dealing with people, and just things in general. Maybe it's just time I set out all those thoughts and get them out of my head.

So, apparently I'm getting the cold shoulder from a few people that I used to call friends. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't hurt, but the one, our friendship had apparently run it's course.

Let me be clear: You saying that you'd rather not bring up the past, and then turning around and sending me a message like that when all I asked for was a little help and a listening ear, proves first-hand you aren't over it. =/
I can't say I'm not to blame for our friendship going to hell, but I can at least say I tried to fix things between us. A little help on the other end, however, may have helped heal things up a bit more, but that was obviously not going to happen.
Again, I can't say that the past doesn't hurt, or that the scars will heal, but I can at least say I'm getting better at putting it behind me. I highly doubt you can. Personally, I hope you read this and call me every nasty name there is.
I'm sorry to say I'm done apologizing, and done trying to make things work when all I get in return is a bunch of s**t.

=/ I personally don't care who reads this, and I hope someone comments this. The person('s) it is about will know who they are, so no PM's or messages asking me if it's you or not.

Now, onto something else. In May I got my license, and have been driving alot more than I used to. I admit I was scared earlier on about driving, but after taking a ride (against mom's wishes) down the road my nephew was killed on, I seemed to have calmed down. Now I love to drive...when I have gas money. =/
My friend's have been using me as a taxi, and finally I told them that if they wanted to ride someplace, they'd need to cough up some cash to pay for gas. Since then, we haven't hung out. I'm seriously not trying to be a d**k, but god dammit gas is expensive, and I'm not running all over hell's half-acre for you to burn my gas without compensation. I know if the roll's were reversed, they'd be asking me for gas money. But, eh, that's life. What more can I say..