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Oh my god!!!!! crying crying crying My life is so breaking down around me... First, my granddad dies when I'm 4. Then my middle school life scars me for life (don't ask how... I'd rather not say). My dog who I considered my sister, cuz my parents got her two weeks after I was born, dies on July 17 2006... I didn't know until 2 days later... Now my high school life sucks. Every girl I love isn't with me... (my exs Cathy, Candy, Brianna, and my current girl Audrey)... Two of them hate me, tho they say they don't, but that's just to make ME feel better... My favorite girlfriend who I broke up with a few days ago had tickets to visit me, and I ******** my chances of meeting her by breaking up with her... My other ex says she loves me but shows no indication of it. And my current girl, whom I love very much, might/might not come to live with me. I'm sure my parents love for me is surely going down, what with what's been going on in and out of school. And the worst part is, I just found out that being suicidal runs in the family... Aren't I lucky that I have loving friends... right?