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I know I know I've been posting things from the internet.
But I'm finally blogging again.
I guess I haven't done it lately because my emotions have been everywhere.
I mean, at one moment I'm sad, then happy, then pissed, then bitchy...
I know you all ((Or the people who really know me)) know that I get severe mood swings.
It comes with being a psyco.
((yes I admit it))
I snapped at poor Luke today because i just felt like...
I dont even know, I just couldn't stand being around him.
Kinda like he was hogging all my air.
I made him cry and I said sorri after I calmed down.
I do the same thing with Mari too.
Although mari's different because i hate his guts.
Sorri, I just ran off the road with that, back to my main point.
I'm blogging today because I'm...confused.
I'm not going to say what's confusing me,
but I'm so confused i cant stand it.
i dont know... what's going on with people,
I dont know wai...
well, with some people I just want to b***h them out.
But never can since...there's no reason to.
And others I want to just cut out of my life.
But I cant do that either.
They've done things. But their too oblivious to realize hao much it's hurting me.
I wont give any examples. Period.
As you can tell I'm not in the best of moods.
Thinking and medication do that to me.
I take seven pills a day.
Yai for me.
They all taste like a** and I hate them.
I skip out on them alot but if i get too...
what's the word? ... tedious? Mari makes me take them.
But hey, it's better than being an emotional wreck.
((he just makes me take them so I'll leave him alone))
Though I dont like being around marri, it's just a bad habit.
And I despise it when people say, "Aw, you love him deep down."
We hate each other's guts.
the only reason we play nice in public is so we dont get arrested.
If we ever fight there's blood and broken bones.
deep down, we want to kill each other.
Bad habits...
((Sorri, i jumped again))
I have a ton of them.
Like...breaking my fingers.
That one's huge.
If I feel bad I'll bite down on my fingers until they snap.
A more normal one is I alwais check for all three scars on my pinky.
I dont know wai.
and I bite my toungue alot.
((For those who know hao i REALLY got the peircing on my toungue...yah you know wai))
So people who are reading this,
post a bad habit of yours.
I'd love to hear them.
And your favorite cartoon/superhero.
I'd love to know that too.
Mine is Batman and spongebob.
((I'm such a child))
if I get no comments I will cry.
anywai...back to typing.
well, two things have been on my mind lately.
One is the obvious. ((I'll spare you guys that know me and wont name it))
and just a collage of things that make up 'his' face.
...i wish I could be more specific...but I cant.
it's like trying to write your name in the mud.
It works for like two seconds, then closes up.
((That sounded weird.))
Oh random topic!
I got a tattoo!!!
>w<
It's frickin sweet.
I hate it hao the people say there permeanent.
Any sharp knife can get them off.
duh.
(Dont try it at home kiddies, it hurts like a mother )
I actuallt am staring to think i've written enough.
I've... run out of random thoughs.
OMG YAOI WHERE?!
Okai that was my last one.
I'll try to write more later i promise.