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Ok yea I thought of a great topic to write about...depression.
Well yea, most of the people I talk to know I have problems, and the thing is I just need someone who would understand me.
People I hang out with might think I am happy, well they really shouldn't, its more of an act than happiness.
I mena i just found being happy pointless, cause your so happy, but something ALWAYS goes wrong, and it never stays perfect.
I mean people "try" to talk to me, but the truth is that they don't care at all, plus they wouldn't understand me at all.
I just need to find one person who would be able to lekt me speak.
When I try to talk about how I hate myself, people end up saying, "Your stupid for thinking that" or "I'll hit you if you keep that up"
Thank you people that REALLY helps. Or better yet, "YOUR GONING LIZZIE ON US!" Thus the many reasons I don't bother to talk about stuff.
Plus people say it's "bad" to keep everything in. Well why should I let people know how I fell, so they can say s**t, so they can pretend to care...no thank you, Cat will pass on that.
I am perfectly fine keeping in every bit of emotion to myself no one needs to know, and no one takes time to care anyways.

Oh and for those of you who say you care, or reading this, try to help, I know you won't, its nothing new to me, plus no one will read this anyways.
I make these journals to let stuff out, not for people to notice, I know they won't.