Well... I cleaned all day. My house should be spotless, besides my mom's room. I was so tired yesterday. My best friend called and we talked until we both gave up. We were trying to stay away. The conversation wasn't boring at all but seeing as it was midnight, yeah. I'm going to start a new diet. I think I should really do that. I'm gaining weight and that really isn't good. I'm going to start eating less and only drinking water. I'm going to start bring a lunch to school too. I'm still exercising but I need to work a lot harder now.
Hmm... What else have I established in this past day? Well, I think I'm going to stay distant from one of my best friends. The way that he is now is making me sick. He's acting more annoyingly flamboyant and just completely fake. People like that don't deserve to have my company. I'm not trying to seem all high and mighty but that's how it is. People who aren't themselves don't deserve company at all because what's the point. You're basically lying to yourself and the people you're with. I know for a fact he isn't this slutty flirt that shows his a** off to random strangers but if this is the real him, I don't think I can be around him. I just miss my old friend.
Yesterday, my best friend told me he was saying something about the clothes I have in my closet. He was implying that I dress like a boy. That basically hurt my feelings. I don't enjoy being made fun of, even if it wasn't on purpose. I don't want to be the subject of someone's dark entertainment.
I'm not a rich person. I have but so many things that are valuable. When someone steals something from me, they literally steal a piece of me that I spent time to earn. Most of the things I get are gifts. Everything else is what I've kept for years. I'm honestly grateful for the things I get.
Well apparently my ex doesn't want to talk to me and that's ok I guess. I don't know if he's busy or just doesn't want to talk to me at all because he's angry with me or something, but alright. The only thing that makes me upset about this is that I can't keep up a friendship with him even though I've tried. Overall, it's ok. I'll deal with it but not doing anything. I'm probably being all in his face again and I don't want to be that way.
Anyways, I'm going to probably spam on Chatterbox or something. If I find anything juicy to talk about, I'll make another entry (to make up for not posting on the 3rd). Alrighty. Byeee!!~
 Mari Lambo · Sun Oct 05, 2008 @ 11:12pm · 0 Comments |
