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dont you hate it when there something you want but you cant have it...you can never have it...well im there..ive been there all my life and it still going on...but you guys all end sonner or later and youll forget about it..but me im different ..i still want it ...you want to know what i want
i want my father to love me......i want him to stop treating me like s**t and love me...
its not fair...when i was born all he did was go to bars..drink and drink and drink.....then i started getting older and he tried to abuse me..WTF... thanks mom..for blocking his fist..i know it hurt..but u didnt have too....i would of prouberly died..if he hit me..he hits sooooo hard..my gosh...sometimes i just want to fight back..i want to be the bigger person instead of the better person..but i didnt fight back...i still dont understand....why dad why...why are u treating me this way...why are we related......i cant see why..and i wish you were telling the truth when you told me " you were adopted" you know how much that hurts me...guess what dad
I WILL NEVER BE LIKE YOU...NEVER!!! i will never yell at my childeren saying " i wish i had no kids...i wish everyone was gone" i will never do that ..i will never leave them when they need me the most ...never will i turn into that a*****e that you are.....................