I have never been very Flexible. Everyone knows that.
HAHAHAHAHAHA! Ice Ice thinks he knows everything about her, yet he still ignores a big part of her life right in front of him. ME! Oh Damn, I wish all of you could see the madness written on my face right now when I say those two sentences. It's like I'm one of those evil people in an anime >w<
Naw, it's all good. Axel and I are working at calming me down. We updated the profile and this journal entry should help a lot more. We have a while to calm down. ^^ -huggles- Of course when that b***h comes up to subject I just imagine pinning something against the wall and twitching madly.
How I would have loved to torture her and make her writhe. I won't. I can't. I'm gonna grow up somewhat and stop being so vindictive right after something happens. It's harder than I thought though. I really gotta talk a lot about it with him and then talking makes me more violent towards him. He keeps singing though which calms me down again. We are singing the situation to each other now. It helps a lot more. ^^
I ish in control again. No more crazy. -sigh- It is just so painful it is maddening. You know what I mean? I mean Double die was like my daughter. To have her act like I'm such worthless peice of s**t after all I do and have loved her... ******** I should be so lucky to have come so far.
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"I don't want to close my eyes/ don't wanna fall asleep," he sang as we twirled in the dark street. He held me so close I could smell the nutmeg from his cloak and slight tinge of ash from burning something. Axel. I looked up at the street light and let myself slip into his arms completely.
"As much as I wish I could always have you, I know our time is limited. Baby, I know you won't end with me," I said, holding myself away from him so I wouldn't cry and letting my head droop. He smiled to himself and lifted my chin, causing a tear to fall down my cheek.
"Don'cha worry bout it," were the last words he said that night. Our lips met and tears streaked down either side of our masks. Such a perfect moment of tragedy. It will sleep a while longer. This tragedy that could occur. He won't be there to help me. But at least I have him now.
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Fragmented Self who wanders through life like a dreamer and wades through the river of dreams as though it were the only truth left in this world
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