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Who am I to love someone, why am I cursed to hurt the ones I love with all my heart and watch as my sins twist a knife in their hearts. I have sinned and I regret it every waking moment I live. I would sooner die then have them see an ounce of pain in their life yet I'm their pain, their sorrow I wish I could make it al go away. I'm sorry for what I did, I do what I can to repent for my crimes yet I'm boud to sorrow as I watch my dearest loved one suffer my incompetence. I don't deserve to have been loved by anyone. I love you now and forever even as I die with you shouting my name in hate. I love you as you plunge the knife deeper in my heart because I want to feel something and not this empty numbness from my soul. I love you forever more.