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for the first time in my life you will benefit me
but i can't take all the crap that you've dished out anymore
all the nights that i've spent not sleeping for someone who doesn't care
all the night's i've lost being a damn number to you
another test score
another grade that you have to get up
another number cold, hard number with no feelings.

a mistake.

and i want to give up on you. i can't take any more of this crap. i can't take anymore stock into your fake CARING and KINDESS or how you misuse those words.

i'm just a dollar sign for your institution. you guys could care less that i can't name all 50 states, i can't name all 7 continents without a piece of paper, and that i don't know my multiplication tables. i'm 12. i should know this.

you guys could care less that i don't know REALLY about tectonic shift. you guys could care less that i could tell you stuff that isn't in that ******** book and isn't on that damn test.

you guys could care less that i'm in the top 2% because i have a 3.
you guys could care less that i have an 85 because it's not a 99.99
i'm not perfect and i'm far from it
i'll never be one of those kids who does every homework, gets hundreds on every project. i've stopped taking into stock what you've said to me. because you really don't care, now do you?

if i'm going to be a number, i'm going to be the one that REALLY reflects how you feel about me. about my friends. about anyone who doesn't neatly fit into your little bubble. zero.

everything your system taught me is meant for the majority. i'm a minority. you never taught me how to write correctly. i spell like s**t. my grammar's only good because i read more than you gave me. my handwriting is getting better and my fingers don't hurt because i'm teaching myself, you fascist bastards.

and yet i stay with you so long.
because i have no choice
because it's illegal to not
because i need you.

but you've taken so much and have naught to give me.
except this. but i've already swallowed and choked on all of your crap so no more.
peace.

[end rant about public education system with incorrect punctuation used on purpose and no caps because i'm lazy and irritated at how i've been treated.]