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what is this? why do i feel this way?
first time we met. it was all fun and games.
hanging out, acting crazy.
chatin it up, being lazy.
as time would go on, and we would talk more,
are friendship grew, expanded, soared.
we became the best of friends,
never expected anything more.
talking about deeper topics, problems, feelings,
all this, among other things.
more and more i began to care,
your life i now hold so dear,
will hug you tight like a bear,
when your feeling down and scared.
all the crazy stuff you did,
brought me even closer kid.
beginning to worry about your well-being.
if you were a fisher and i was a fish,
this is what set the hook.
to care for someone on such a deep level....
almost too much to handle.
a heart racking pain gripped,
every time you destroyed yourself a little more.
still, even so, i wanted nothing more.
why then do i feel this way?
you were drowning in abuse,
the breaking point i couldn't turn away.
resistance at the thought...
try to pull you out,
each attempt in vain,
what broke me was the caring pain.
so weird now.....
i know your not being honest,
and it hurts me even more.
standing at the threshhold and ready to walk out the door.
cant take this anymore.
we've grown so close, but so far away.....
might as well leave anyway...
worried about you everyday...
i want to kiss you and turn away...
i want to hold you anyway.
even though...
i know...