You would expect things to get better when they're at the worst they can possibly be, yes? Although, how do you handle a situation when it only keeps getting worse and not any better? You keep thinking, oh, it cannot get any worse. Although, it does. How do you expect I feel if you placed yourself in my shoes? I'm down. I feel stupid. Although, I suppose there isn't much to do to make things better. How would I ever find a way? I need a friend. One who won't turn his/her back on me when things are starting to collapse. One who won't tell me I'm annoying or an idiot because I'm too sensitive when depression takes over.
Why is it that I constantly give, but never get? It gets unfair. It gets quite hard, and I don't understand why I would ever bother helping that person again- but for some reason or another? I do. It's just all very odd. I work in strange ways, and I really wish I didn't. I wish, things didn't go the way they did. Maybe it's all just a phase. Maybe it isn't. Maybe it will get better, and everyone goes through adversity from time to time, but, maybe I'll be stuck like this forever.
I wish someone would be there, so I can talk to them whenever I pleased. Where they wouldn't leave my sight in the time of need. I'm just rambling. Don't pay attention to me. I'm sure this doesn't make any sense to you, anyway. Forget it. Just, forget it. And no, I'm not being "over-dramatic". I'm being truthful. Kay? Kay, thanks.
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