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I can't sleep. I'm thinking harder about things now than I ever had before. What do I do? Do I continue to pursue him, to continue to love him? Or do I let him continue on his new happy existence with Guiniveve? He seems to be much happier with her. She doesn't stress him out. But I don't want to give up! I just want what will make him happy, and if being away from me does the trick then so be it. I wish I could hug him and kiss him again and feel his skin against mine...I told him a year but can I last that long? Will it make our situation worse? Whatever. I'm going to bed