All my life I've stayed silent. I've kept my mouth shut about every little thing. I've let every single thing get to me. I've spent every waking moment of my life worrying about what others thought. I've been thinking that I've lost myself. I've let every single thing ever said about or done to me shape who I am. I've nearly destroyed my very being, either do to my own mistakes, problems created by the likes of other people, or the drama of other people's s**t altogether. But as much as it hurt, I took the abuse. I took it like needle to a junkie. I've reached a breaking point. I've stayed in silence watching all the bullshit going on. I'm sick of it. I tired of feeling bad for myself. I'm tired of giving a damn to those who don't deserve it. I'm tired of giving a damn about people's problems that can't help themselves. I'm sick of making stupid mistakes. I'm sick of people who lie to me. I'm sick of lying to myself about who I am. I'm tired of this facade I've played. I'm tired of letting my emotions rule me without reason. I'm sick of having to hear about my financial woes. I'm tired of not speaking up about what bothers me. I'm sick and tired of it all. I've held onto this anger and resentment for far too long. I've done this all, and for what? So others could think of me as a nice guy? I AM A NICE GUY!!! I've got friends in my life that actually give a damn about me. I've got a family who loves me. I don't need anyone's pity or sorrow or any of that bullshit. Mark this day down, tell everyone, have everyone read this, i don't ******** care. From this day forth, I am through. I'm done playing the fool. The Dan Kise you all knew is dead. I am dead and reborn, like a phoenix from the ashes. From now on, nothing or no one else is gonna stop from me from being myself. I'm in control of my destiny! I don't care who hates me, who thinks of me as annoying, shallow, or anything like that. I've got people in my life worthy of my love and friendship, and they know who they are. And that's more than anyone can ask for. I've said it some many times, Thank you for being there. LOVE ME OR HATE ME, I GARENTEE YOU'LL NEVER ******** FORGET ME!!!!!!!!
HELLBOUND CROW · Wed Dec 17, 2008 @ 02:49am · 0 Comments |