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I turned into a ******** suicidal douche bag today.
Yuh v.v for the second time in my life I went suicidal on you guys lets just get this across right now so I don't try for a third time. I have a crush on the girl I'm giving some chuck's to at AB06 and she knows who she is and I told a certain someone about what was going through my mind and then she told a certain someone about it. I'm not telling anyone about that kind of stuff again EVER. I dont NOT GIVE A ******** WHO YOU ARE BECAUSE I JUST LEARNED A VERY BIG ******** LESSON.(well okay maybe if I just met you I'll tell you forsay Brandon who I told in the first place because he was cool enough to listen and say just goodluck) instead of just doing what I would have told him not to do if he knew who person number 3 was. I'm pissed off, confused, sad, scared, paranoid all at the same time. I'll say this now if person number two shows at my door tomorrow after school I'll probably just not ******** answer the door, and just leave her there because I'm pretty pissed right now and I know I'm getting repetative here but I just don't give a ******** right now because I almost just went downstairs to get a knife and just end it, because I'm just a god damn ******** weak ******** who can be set off at any moment. I don't care if your ******** offended by anything I just said and if anyone pulls a ******** OMG GO READ THE BIBLE bullshit on me I'm just gunna ******** lose it again. Also if person number 2 pulls a OMG LETS TELL YOUR PARENTS bullshit I'll never talk to you again and tell your mom about a few of the things you haven't wanted me to tell her or any other secrets you've never wanted me to tell anyone. Just to see how you feel.
For anyone who was worried about me before about this after that little rant I feel better an I don't want to throw up anymore but don't be surprised if I avoid anyone tomorrow.
finally
GOD DAMN ******** LOVE TRIANGLES.
thankyou. surprised
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