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Life today is very hard for me. I wish I could go back in time but God made my path of life kind of wave like. I have been making bad decisions of my own and I wish I would have taken them back. I'm such a complicated person now. And I love someone with all my heart and they don't seem to believe me. We argue a lot now because of me. I don't ever mean to hurt him but I constantly am. I wish I could go away forever and make everyone forget me. Life sucks right now but I wish for a lot of things. I hope 2009 will be a better year because I plan to be a better person because from the early part of this year I was myself. Now I'm just a person in the open that causes sooo many problems. I wish I could go away. But what would that do? Tell me. 2008 has been my worst year yet. I have cried over a boy, wished something that I shouldn't have, made a wrong decision, and most importantly, I disappointed many people. I plan for 2009 to: 1. Not fight 2. Being nicer to the people and things around me 3. Focus on the things I need to Focus on 4. Believe in myself more 5. Stop regretting everything that happens Theres a whole lot more but thats just my top 5 I wish I could re-do this year over again. This year is to depressing. But I have to say I'm sorry to everyone for If I have mistreated you unfairly or given you a dirty look. I hope this new year will be great. No doubts or good feelings I just hope and I will pray. biggrin

Posted by: Rockstargrl_77 Mon Dec 22, 2008 @ 05:31am

Smile because the other side of the tunnel is always going to be brighter in your eyes<3

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Commented on: Tue Dec 23, 2008 @ 03:07am


	Good goals. I may post my goals for 2009. I know how you feel. I always wished I was never placed on this world. Now I wish I were born at a different time. Wish I could redo my whole life. Make the best of this year. And make a better next year.

Commented on: Wed Dec 24, 2008 @ 09:42am


	Sweetheart ... no matter what you can always (AlWAYS!!!!! .....) count on me to talk to. I sat here and read this, and it broke my heart. What you wrote is a part of life (what your going through), but to go through without someone to talk to about it - is not natural. I just want you to know, I am here just like I have always been; for you. Please, if you need to talk to someone; don't hesitate to contact me. I also read your endurance of the present and your look of the future yet to be seen. Your right, the next year will hold great things for you. Not only this year that we are to embark on, buy in the many decades that your life will come across. What I mean to say is, that I am proud of you. Your going through hardships but see the future as a positive; as one should view life. The secret of life when your drowning, is to keep treading. From what I know of you and what I have always known, your a treader. For that I am proud of you. Just remember I am here for you and always will be. With all my love and support. Auntie Heidi lee xoxoxoxo a.k.a. Knucklehead

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