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i love him
i love him
i love him alot
i tell my self this again and again
but why do i feel like im lying to myself
over and over and over again

its so hard to look at him in the eye
when i know that breaking his heart
when i know he wont understand
that i tryed to love him i really did
but i think i got scared
or i think i was wrong
and jumped to conclusions
im scared to be hurt
im scared to let him in
im not sure why i cant just do it
i tried i really did and now i sit here
with your broken heart and my broken soul
i know i see dark
i might seem depressed im not sure
if ill past this next extreme test
but i really dont mind and i really dont care
as long as were friends
ill be ready to live.. to laugh and with you there to help me
to try to let that speical on in and to love like i sound..
but i have a question
am i broken?
am i wicked because people think im playing with your emotions..
playing with your heart
am i evil for trying
to be happy
to be smart?
there glares and stares boring into my back
its not like i dont notice
im not dumb
but is it my fault
or have they just jumped the gun..?