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well everyone...its me Erin.im practically crying right now.know why?well im going to my older bros house this friday.there is a slim chance i might see the one person who did the best job of breaking my heart than any other person.its even worse than when cody dumped me on valentines day and i wore a special outfit that day to surprise him and he made THE GUIDANCE COUNSELOR tell me it was over.gabe and i met at my bros wedding.we danced together.it felt magical.we talked for about a week and everyone at school was wondering why me,the girl who doesn't smile alot,was sooo happy and drawing hearts on everything in sight.weeks pass.i don't hear from him.i asked my friend if i should message him and ask what happened.i did and he wrote back and said he was just busy with friends and school.(though he was on myspace everyday and never replied to my messages before this time)he bought me on super poke (a myspace app) and super tagged me as pretty.for 5 minutes i was genuinely happy.then i go back on to see it again.i go to his page on super poke and apparently he bought like 15 other girls and tagged them all as pretty too.i think he just tagged me cuz he felt bad or something.i just feel that im not good enough or something.am i fat or something?am i ugly?am i too plain?ok well now i AM actually crying.but anyway something really weird is happening to me.i see things in my head and they happen.i thought of an episode of a tv show and its on that day.i see my brother wearing my glasses,i turn around and he is.i have a vivid dream about gabe.i go to the computer and he wrote me back.these are just the beginning of the weird stuff that's been happening to me!im crying cuz my dreams with him were so vivid i didn't want to wake up.as for zach...we changed seats and now i sit next to this guy who acts like an idiot but is a genius...hes cute but i don't see zach anymore.so im here crying at the computer...trying to forget gabe but its just SO hard.im going to listen to break up and sad songs.please comment this,i need all the help i can get. crying crying crying