I am just sick and tired of everything. I mean here I am IRL and no one talks to me, no one even looks at me. I try to become friends with people and all they do is ignore me. I'm sitting right there in front of a group of people I considered friends and I am like non-existant. I'm tired of being ignored and I'm tired of being made fun of. I am made fun of for just about everything. My crappy art skills I try to work on getting better at but all people do is make fun of my pathetic attempts. They are horrid I know but you don't have to tell me and then brag that yours is better. Even my art teacher says it sucks. And everyone I know just thinks about themselves. It's like their world revovles around them and in these short 15 years of my life why can't I be treated like a human being? I mean today I was supposed to go to the movies with this girl I kinda have a crush on. We make plans to be at the theater for the 12:20 showing of Corpse Bride. It's 12: 35 and I give up and go in missing the first part of the movie and sitting alone for the good part of the movie then I went home. I bought 1 tiny bag of candy, 1 m soda, and a ticket and my mom screams at me for spending so much of her money and that her "trust level is on the floor with me". I can't win can I? And then it comes to piano. I suck at that too but I'm getting better. All my friends do are go "Oh you hit the wrong note HAHA!" or "You counted that measure wrong HAHA" and it irritates me. It's like can't anyone ever understand my little part in this stupid world? And so I come here to people that treat me like a human being(some of the time) and I just get depressed. I'm never gonna get any items on this site I want. I know it's a silly thing to just add to my depression but for some reason I just am. And now I'm done with my rant and I just needed to vent.
Akara Raven · Fri Oct 21, 2005 @ 11:39pm · 7 Comments |