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And I have proof.

Yesterday... or well, actually ever since he left on the 1st, I've been feeling really crappy. Yes, I had that stupid virus, and yes, the medicine showed all kinds of stupid side effects on me, but ever since he left I was getting more and more sad and lonely. I live in my family as if I were a stranger, and I feel like it, too. They always talk bad about me behind my back, but for some reason are too stupid to understand that I can hear every single word that's spoken in the kitchen. So yes. I know.

And it's maddening. All I want is to get out of here, but it's yet another 6 months and 2 days until then. I wished I lived with my boyfriend, and the urge to get away from this cursed place is growing every day. So yesterday, I was in this really, REALLY bad mood. I wished my brother would die and not even my boyfriend was able to cheer me up. So I finally ended up ignoring him for the most part on IM and telling him to go away (I feel horrible about that now), and when he did, I wanted him to return, which didn't happen until midnight. And that was when I yelled at him for leaving me to my troubles and having fun while I'm crying my heart out. I shouldn't have, because I sent him away... And I feel really bad about it now sad

Anyways... We talked for a looong time... He told me he loved me and that he'd always be there for me and all that really sweet stuff, while I regretted having said what I did. Then, when I woke up this morning, I started crying again. Because I was so ashamed, and because I missed my boyfriend like crazy. (I actually believe that this is slowly driving me insane, but it's only for another 6 months... Carina, you can do it!)

So... what would any great boyfriend have done to cheer me up? I have no idea. I doubt 98% of the boyfriends around would have done anything except thinking "Oh crap, she's whining again." But Thomas checked his calendar for any free weekends and it turned out that this coming weekend was clear of anything important to do. So he messaged me telling me he was coming over this Friday! eek I could hardly believe it at first, and when I did, I started squealing with joy so my classmates turned their heads wondering what had gotten into me. ^^

Ain't that sweet of him? It almost made me cry - I'd been so mean, and still he's coming over to see me! surprised I gotta think of something to do in return, because he really, really deserves the best heart