No! I'm getting sick and tired of being in the endless pit of immature stupidity that is CCHS! I'd give anything and everything just to wrap my hands around on of their scrawny little necks and throttle them to the point of death! I want my emancipation from the sinister imprisonment that is masked by a disguise of religious order! There is no religious order it's all a grand facade, no one really believes in the words of God in that hypocritical place of utter torture. Ugh!! It's all a lie! There is no "brotherhood" it's just one bad joke after another! Well I say no more to that! I want my peace of mind back! I want my inspiration back! ... I want to not be alone anymore...
... it's so quiet there... in my mind... so.... cold... I've wanted to cry... but I found no tears to form... I wanted to shout... but I could not find my voice... I wanted to die... but death never came...
... It's never enough... No matter how much I try and revert to my old ways of semi-pacifism, I'm pulled to defend myself from their constant attacks of words and fists with my own...
... but I've gotten used to the solitude... It's strange to be surrounded by those I've held dear... it's like a phantom reminding me of how good things were in the past... and taunting me with it continuously...
Very few of you know what's going through my head at the moment... so few do... but I must stand alone.... for I began alone... and so it will be when I die... and all for nothing.. will I be remembered...
Farewell everyone... maybe in time I'll be in a better mood, but my attempts at optimism have failed dramatically...
Music Quote: "Guarding Yourself From The Love of Another, Left You With Nothing Tonight! So Now You Know Why The Devil is Laughing Left You With Nothing Tonight! You Did Decide..."
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first, we live in America. Nobody believes in God anymore, or at least, if they do, they believe exactly what others tell them to. I've long since given up hope on all religion and just settled with the beliefs that feel most comfortable for me.
peace of mind... that'd be nice, wouldn't it. still gettin it when you sleep? if not... well, learn to meditate. that might help...
inspiration... yeah, I can't help you with that. my only inspirations for creativity lately have been... rage, money, and reading abt the way medieval ppl used to torture other ppl... ^^'
and you are NOT alone... I may be weird and freaky, but I am here for you. and if I ever do something to make you feel uncomfortable or to just not want to talk to me, tell me, and i'll make sure to either explain and/or change the way I act
and if you want to cry and can't find the tears... eye drops help to get ya started! (and yes, I am just joking). I read something that makes me want to cry. thats why I like reading such dark things, because I can't cry without them...
and you might have begun alone, but you don't have to end alone... I promise, if you fight for it, you don't ever have to be truly alone. there is always someone just waiting to be found.
and I'll give you another music quote "Believe me/You bleed for me/I'll bleed for you/I caught you walking through walls/Drowned with applause/From the world that makes me crazy" and "Look right through me/I'll let it go/I can't help this feeling anymore/I won't go anywhere/Maybe you'll see me"
recognize it?