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it's not denial...i'm just selective about the reality i accept... ...poems...songs...notes...plans...mental break throughs and break downs of my life...or lack there of...


twilight_pryncess_bella
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Lessons from a Dead Girl....one for BBC and one for KLAHR
This is for tha Masta after he obliterated me....personally...I have to give him his props....I didn't think he could do it....but well....you know how impossivbly GREAT I am at underestimating people....whatever

13. New Friends Don't Always Help You Forget Old Ones

You have her.
You have evidence.
You have back up.
You have everything.
What do I have?
Nothing.
You've stolen my friend.
You've shown everything to everyone.
You've got people approaching me.
You have everything.
What do I have?
Nothing.
She tries to act
like she's still on my side.
Not so much,
this is full out control.
Bibisism sweeping across
and taking over,
blocking me out
and locking me away.
You're forcing me out
and I want back in.
But do I really?
Not with you two as friends.
Is there anything else?
Anything better?
Anything to help me forget
you and her together?
You've become irresistable,
something wanted,
something needed,
a commodity.
And I'm left out,
insulted and defeated,
rejected,
a nobody.
Take everything I've got,
I don't want it anymore.
Take everything
that you don't already have.
And I'll just rebuild,
just start over again.
Make new friends
and all that good stuff.
But I won't be able to forget you two...
the love of my life
and the one who destroyed it...
It's just not going to happen.


And this one....grudgingly....is for my sista and fellow Harlequin Pyro....she's a flaming idiot for not noticing these things....but whatever....

17. If you look Close enough, You'll see the Truth

You're an idiot,
you know that?
You're blind
and stupid
and pointless.
PUTTANA!
You're worthless,
you mean nothing,
why don't you see
what's right in front of you?
The only time he's mad at you
is when it involves me,
besides that tiny little fact,
he loves you.
Isn't it obvious?
I've been replaced
without a second thought
with you
for you.
He wants you now,
obviously,
because you're the better choice.
What did you ever do to him?
If he ever loved me,
and I doubt he ever truely did,
it's over now,
because he's moved on to you.
He loves you now,
not me,
never me,
and never again.
You win.





 
 
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