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IT was nice to me. IT was my best friend. IT then became the sweetest boyfriend ever. IT is Kazana-zan. And in the month of October, 2008, he did something horrible. I never thought he would do this kind of thing.
Kazana Started the school yeat just the same as the last, Nothing changed about him, except he got a bit taller. Everything was great between us. Then... BAM! He goes and cheats on me with Lady Death 12. When someone told me, I didn't cry. I just stood there, my ears still in shock. As soon as the bell rang to go to 2nd period, I ran to the bathroom to cry. My heart was pounding so fast, ready to jump out and die. It felt as if my stomach was gonna come out my butt. I looked in the mirror and saw someone I didn't know. "Ok, Princetongirl818 doesn't cry. Princetongirl818 is a fighter." I kept telling myself that. Thanks to that saying, I made it through the school day with going unnoticed. That day, I walked home instead of taking the bus. I unlocked the front door and walked straight to my room, across the rug, and into my closet without even taking off my backpack. When I close the closet door behind me, I bury my face into the clothes on the left side of the rack, clothes that haven't fit for years. I stuff my mouth with old fabric and scream until there are no more sounds left under my skin. I stayed in my closet, and cried myself to sleep.
Yes, I was brokenhearted. This whole thing was unexpected because he seemed like the perfect guy who wouldn't do that. Thanks to him, I have trust issues and can't trust the people I care about in life. I wrote songs about IT and they were all depressing. I even wrote a song about how I don't want to ever be a girlfriend because of what he did. I don't wanna go back down that road. But when I sing the songs about him, I don't feel depressed. I feel like there's a fire within my soul, ready to tear him down. Sometimes, I still look back and cry...
Ok, I cry in the middle of the night for the same thing. Be prepared for the expected, cause your boyfriend might be a lying cheese brain.







That was my CBA writing thing for school. It got me a 4. I feel like such a great writer! Just to let ya'll know, every single sentence in this is real.