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So here I stand, a year older, wiser, and with a new appearance, and a fresh view upon living. And yet after a year I've returned to the same standing upon relationships I had prior to all my changes. I don't want one, plain and simple. But the complex emotions around that solitary statement are a bit more intrinsic to the truth behind all my actions.

I may not want a relationship, but i still do crave physical intimacy. I still love how soft a girls lips are when I touch them with mine. I still adore the heady feeling I get when a person wraps their arms around me and holds me close. Though I do warn you, I may be physically intimate and even emotionally, but I just cant handle a relationship. I know i have a few commitment issues, but all these nuances to my behavior are caused by the multiple occurrences I've had my heart broken.

I will agree with girls and say that a lot of men are selfish and look out only for one thing, their dicks. But girls can harm others just as easily.

I might as well indulge you in what brought me back to this point.

If you know me personally, then you will know whats happened to me recently. To reiterate my point, Ive been set off relationships for probably another year or so. I guess I didn't mean as much to her as I thought. Still, If you're one of those whom wishes to date me, blame her basically. If things had been handled differently and with more tact and intelligence on her end, then maybe I wouldn't have been left in this state again. I shouldn't have even given her the chance. I should have trusted my gut like I had on multiple occasions.

So there you go, another view into why I behave this way. I try to answer most questions about me. If i don't address something, feel free to ask me. I might even avoid being enigmatic in my response.

adieu