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Okay, sooo... I was a christian again for about... 12 minutes.
okay lemme go back to sunday morning.
my mom asked my sis and i if we wanted to go to church and nikki said yes and wanted me to go... so i chose to, only so nikki wouldn't be sad. =/ right before we had to go nikki was in bed sick, and mom wanted company... so i decided to go anyways. There was a preacher named Mario there. he was a comedic preacher no less. he brought up the same points and things my mom brought up to me the night before before i stormed off. i figured it was uncanny, mom thought it was "divine intervention." then i really didn't know, but now i don't care. About the time he asked for people to stand up to be saved i noticed my mom was looking at me like she was about to burst into tears, so i silently asked her to stand with me- i was only doing it so she'd be happy mind you. we did the routine and i was a christian. about 10 minutes after the feeling of freedom i had disappeared. i didn't get the feeling from becoming a christian, it just stayed 'till then. As it left my mind was screaming at me. "what the ******** are you doing?! something's not right with this, get out!!" it repeated that until monday night [the third of at least 4 sermons. tonight is the fourth], where i told mom about that. hurt her feelings alot ._. and i walked around in front of the church driveway and their walkway between the church itself and their rec. building for a little over 2 hours.

soo basically i went from an atheist to a christian to despising any and all Deities besides Inari within 15 minutes