I don't know how he manages to always make me feel like an idiot. He'll have me crying for DAYS, and when he finally speaks to me, he convinces me that I had no reason to be upset, and that he's a good person who cares about me. I'm so confused... I keep meaning to cut him out of my life, but when I try to, he convinces me that he cares about me. We've been through so much together. I don't think anyone really understands my feelings for him. Even though he breaks my heart, I still have such strong feelings for him. If I saw him right now Id probably hold on to him and never let go. I hate myself because of it. I can't control my feelings for him. The very first day I met him, I felt something. Even though I talked behind his back, and denied having any feelings for him, there was always something there. I was just too afraid to open my heart. When I finally opened my heart, he realized he could do better than me. I'm a selfish person, and there are so many girls who'd die to be with him. It was crazy of me to be so selfish. Guys keep coming in to my life. I develop feelings for them, or they develop feelings for me, but It never works out. Maybe it's because I'm meant to be with him. That sounds silly, but the weirdest things keep getting in the way... and when I've lost all hope, he comes back in my life. We're both young and confused. We're so much alike, and thats what I think really keeps us apart. I think if he lived closer to me, we'd have a stable relationship. With my trust issues, and his emotions, the distance just never works for us. No matter how many times we try, it never works.
Ugh, I'll probably wake up and not feel the same way. I'm crazy that way. Peace.
 Pondy Is The Coolest · Thu Feb 19, 2009 @ 08:10am · 1 Comments |
