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Before I came back up here, I decided to propose a separation from you. Admittedly, it was very bad timing what with trying to assimilate Khoran into our group (once again, another set of actions that was not well thought out), and neither you nor our friends can be blamed for the train of thought that followed. Please understand that such assumptions are entirely incorrect.

There are several things I have begun to master; one of which would be my temper and rebellious mindset, which has been most detrimental to not just my relationship with you, but to the relationships I have with the other people around me as well. Very shortly, I will return to taking Ridlin, which I had abandoned over the summer in an attempt to refute what I thought was my 'dependancy' on the drug. It will help me to remain calm and clear headed. I have developed better decision making skills, rational thinking and a sense of humor(which I was sorely lacking when it came to other people, resulting in me being overly sensitive). There are issues of the past that, however deeply I lay them to rest, always return to haunt me. Before I can move forward and grow, I have to settle them. I know that I am unstable. While I am like this, I can't do anything good for myself, much less be of assistance or a stronghold to someone that I care for. I have returned to counseling.

Please be patient and wait for me. I am trying--truly I am. My progress is slow but I will reach my goal, and I will be better for it.