I have for years now, had server mental depression + thought that living out a certain contract was my only way to happiness. About 7 months ago, I met my fiancee. For the first time in 10yrs, I dont have depression. He treats me like no one ever has, and actually listens to me.
The thing about him that scares me is his sexuality. I hate being touched and can do very little. redface
The other fault is that the influences of others have screwed my mind up, and that I have 'sharp edges'. I am not kidding when I say he is the first person to be nice to me and to care.
I want to marry him so bad, BUT...
My contract says I have to be single, and if I run off with him.... they'll kill us both.
"Lean Freedom Is Better Than Fat Slavery" -Aesop
 LaraEtite · Tue Mar 10, 2009 @ 08:22am · 0 Comments |
