its not normal from me to write here in my journal but idk why i get the feeling of writing in it now mabe its teh mixture of things taht ive been feeling lately ive kept my self quit ive bottled up so much and how ive felt lately idk any better way to describe it but since ive been going to this "thing" my firends know what it is so many new things have sparked here and there after learning so much on how to control or atlest try to ive just now realised how lonely i am its like.... you know when you go to school and you see all the happy couples and all the happy people smiling and laughing and you think "id kill to have that" thats what i want.. i want to be happy and not hurt any more i dont want this pain in my chest any more i want to feel it.. the warmth of anouther the reasurance the hugs.. the kisses ... the happiness i know i have firends that love and care for me and im glad i do id do anything for my firends and i do love them.. but theres a void in me thats never been filled... and its hurtting bad..
idk even know why im tyeping this crap... mabe for attention? mabe for help? idk i just felt like it i really dont know any more ever since the fire its just... not been the same ...... help me
 xDemonicDamex · Sat Mar 21, 2009 @ 06:44am · 1 Comments |
