Today I realize what I've lost.
The one thing that kept me sane.
The thing that motivated me to live.
The one I loved with all my heart and more.
The only person I thought could ever make me smile.
The only person that ever made life seem worth it.
Still my friend...
But never mine.
So today, I listened to some song on the bus with Breanna.
It happened to remind me of my situation.
Were I wanted to die, and only one person was trying to help.
I actually cried.
Sad huh?
Pathetic if you ask me.
So once again I'm faced at the point.
Were death seems a sweet release.
And again the gun comes in my head.
And an urge to cut my skin.
I need the control.
But I don't want to live.
Truly, after losing what motivated me all these months to live...
What's the point?
...
-Paige.
The one thing that kept me sane.
The thing that motivated me to live.
The one I loved with all my heart and more.
The only person I thought could ever make me smile.
The only person that ever made life seem worth it.
Still my friend...
But never mine.
So today, I listened to some song on the bus with Breanna.
It happened to remind me of my situation.
Were I wanted to die, and only one person was trying to help.
I actually cried.
Sad huh?
Pathetic if you ask me.
So once again I'm faced at the point.
Were death seems a sweet release.
And again the gun comes in my head.
And an urge to cut my skin.
I need the control.
But I don't want to live.
Truly, after losing what motivated me all these months to live...
What's the point?
...
-Paige.
