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So.... I lost my best friend yesterday.
She didn't die or anything; we're just not friends anymore.
I think I was in love with her to some degree but I'm not sure.
She started dating someone like 2 months ago and I started seeing less of her, it really broke me down and made me feel depressed.
We started to drift further apart and it came to a climax last week; we got into a fight but we forgave each other and came up with a compromise.
She told me she would try to visit every other day starting this week.... she visited Tuesday but then I heard from one of my best friends she was complaining about not seeing her boyfriend and Wednesday night she sent me an email saying "nevermind the every other day thing", it was Thursday when I heard this and got the email.
I was completely crushed and hurt because I was really looking forward to seeing her that day.
I knew where she was second period so I went into her classroom before the final bell and told her not to call me, email me, or even talk to me.... I've never felt so upset.... I've known this girl since kindergarten and I don't think we can fix it because this is all my fault.
I struggled with not telling anyone how I felt about her and trying to accept it myself; I hated myself for the longest time and asking myself how I could ever allow myself to feel that way about her.
 Organic Paranoia · Sat Apr 11, 2009 @ 09:17pm · 0 Comments |
